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of being absolutely stuck to her, thinking I have no other options, because nobody else wants me around. I know about being latched onto the second I started HRT, and being manipulated into thinking I was a bad person, because trauma made me feel angry, sometimes violent

I was traumatized, I was harassed and bullied for a year and a half in my job at the time by almost everyone around me, and it sent me into such a deep spiral that I nearly isolated myself from everyone offline for about 5 years. What 3 months of being at home does, you can compound that by 50

And when I go home I sit in my room, in the dark, and I occupy myself with 40 different hobbies and side projects, and I sleep ... maybe 4 hours a day. When I'm home I'm back in that isolation, but it's been so long, and there was so much of it, that the isolation turned to a comfort.

And, I'm just trying to detail for you, how scrambled my brains are

This maps onto a lot of my own experience as well

it's good that you managed to get away. many have said similar things about her and it sounds like it was really bad for you. try to take a moment each day and be gentle with yourself, you always deserved that, so try your best, even if you're scrambled from the bad experiences. 🩵

Hey as someone with some quite relatable history I just wanna say this thread is thoughtfully worded and bold as hell, it's clear you can speak about survivor struggles beautifully and you deserve to take pride in that :)

Hey, I’m so sorry. I have some tgirl friends irl who I think might be tangentially getting sucked into the Temple stuff. Can I dm you?

Yeah I don’t mind