I don’t recall if I ever did this, and I don’t really know how to do it in a way that will reach those people, if any of them are still only. But I do truly regret hurting the people whom I did when I was being manipulated by Laurelai. Manipulation happened, I was influenced, but it was
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@cmdr_nova@mkultra.monster · Mar 27, 2025 · 4:13 AM
still partly something I, myself did. Whether it be participating in dogpiling all those years ago, or personally harassing someone for doing exactly what I’ve been doing the past week: I’m sorry, and I don’t know how to make up for all of it
@cmdr_nova@mkultra.monster · Mar 27, 2025 · 4:16 AM
Hell I don’t even know if anyone remembers the name “Meryl” or “Meryl S. Kavanagh” but that’s how I represented myself online through all of that, and in a way it’s still part of my identity
Just buried, like everything else
@cmdr_nova@mkultra.monster · Mar 27, 2025 · 4:19 AM
But, an entire generation has grown up and moved into the community and a lot of this is lost to the wheel of time. But I have so many things I need to say, and ways that this not only affected me, but the people around me at the time
@cmdr_nova@mkultra.monster · Mar 27, 2025 · 4:21 AM
When Laurelai eventually drifted away and left me with nothing but a husk of an identity, it took even more years to really understand what happened. And even though it’s been 11 years since it started, I still don’t know who I am anymore
