@cmdr_nova@mkultra.monster · Apr 4, 2025 · 12:53 PM
So much of my 30s were basically stolen from me, and by the time I managed to get even a little bit of a clearer head, and realize what's gone on, and what's been done to me, tada
40
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Seeing people enjoying turning or being 40, and I turn in May, and I'm just trying to stamp out the existential dread of time passing, and the 90s being such a distant memory that there are now people who didn't even experience the early 2000s
Apr 4, 2025 · 12:48 PM Z
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https://bsky.app/profile/nullconvention.bsky.social Bluesky · Apr 4, 2025 · 7:04 PM
This is sort of the lived trajectory for me. Teens were a living hell I can barely remember. Twenties, the same, and even poorer. Thirties were okay, lost the back half. Now I'm 40 and it's like - well fuck me running. They'll steal every last breath.
https://bsky.app/profile/harrowheart.bsky.social Bluesky · Apr 4, 2025 · 10:55 PM
40 isn’t so old! although i can appreciate how surreal and grim it must feel. those bad days that led you to the present are truly horrific, but you’re moving forward at a pace good for you!! i really appreciate and admire that.